Frankenstein Facade

who's the bitch today, huh;

2009-12-29T21:40:00.003+08:00

Moved...to something more fun:

HERE!

oh the joy;

2009-12-16T22:07:00.003+08:00

After a long hiatus, I've decided to go back to fan fiction. Yup, I'm back. So that means I've got to start writing Chapter 3 of Shelter...sigh. I kinda forgot all the characters in Ouran High already -.-

On the bright side, that means I'm more or less starting on a fresh slate! And I guess this time my writing (DAMMIT I FORGOT THAT STUPID WORD) profile (for a lack of a better word) will extend to more than just those stuff.

And I guess it's also time I made my appearance on the LJ community. Yup, that's where I'll go.

Yi Yun, if you read this, ask me for the URLs. There's a birthday fic just for you (:

so just pull the trigger;

2009-12-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

Well I guess I'll be honest here (for once, perhaps, about my emotions?), if anymore of this comes I'll most likely crash.

And it'll be quick and silent. Just like that.

Crash.

2009-12-09T07:37:00.002+08:00

Well, not even 37th HSC would accept me...hrm.

Guess that means I won't be wearing that round badge anymore, after two years of faithfully doing so.

It hurts, yeah. The email was short and simple, not unexpected, but still shocking either ways. I guess it never occurred to me that I wouldn't get in, even though part of me always nagged at the fact that "it's impossible" and that because of "my status as a chairman", I wouldn't be dropped, or not so easily dropped.

But oh well, I was. Nothing I can do about it, even if I do talk to Mr Fong as he has stipulated in the email. I wonder if I do go talk to him, whether it will make a difference.

That's not really the worst part, not getting in. The worst was the knowledge that I was so close to getting in, and I bludgeoned my results, my interview was disastrous, among other things.

No MAS, no HSC...I guess in retrospect it's a good thing, at least I can ensure that I won't screw up like this year...

But of course, as I pretty much remember saying before, I wanted it bad. Very bad. And to not get it...

I'll definitely support HSC to the best of my ability, and I think for just the net year, I'll fade into the background, and serve as much as I can in Debates. :/

To all those that got in, if you're reading this at all, congratulations, and, well, don't screw up school okay (: we already have someone doing a GREAT job out of it (pun fully intended, oh, fully was intended too)

I'll not say it hurts that much, simply because there was a part of me also nagging that I won't get in. So, well, that's the end of my High School Council life. At least I got to enjoy it while I was at it...

All the best to 37th HSC, make 2010 phenomenal.

And hell, it does hurt after all.

alan shore is teh awesome;

2009-12-07T22:59:00.003+08:00

Boston Legal's really getting to me. It's bloody cool, and it really makes me want to be as snarky as Alan Shore. He's a freaking awesome guy xD

I just wonder if the actor is equally snarky. Because if he is, I'm really going to be wowed.

And Paris Hilton's My New BFF is a completely hilarious show. I mean, it's so bimbotic, with Paris acting all sophisticated and stuff. Sigh, rich people these days.

Speaking of which, DK HOW DARE YOU GO TO JAPAN?! YOU ALREADY TRAVERSED THE WORLD GIVE OTHER PEOPLE A CHANCE GODDAMMIT.

Right...uh, well, dammit. Writer's block. Again. Sigh. Seeya then.

work it move that bitch crazy;

2009-12-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

I've got a group of madmen downstairs blaring music at a most likely illegal noise level as I type this.

The only redeeming factor is that most of the music they're playing is Lady GaGa's. Which, on my meter, takes off like 90% of the guilt.

Well, firstly, welcome back to Singapore, all the first batch of BSC people, hope all of you had enough fun xD

Well, you're back in Singapore now, no more cheap goods and airy fairy times where your parents are almost non-existent. Heh, too bad xD

Crap. I forgot what I wanted to talk about. Never mind, next time xD

speechless;

2009-11-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

I never knew when someone is called a disaster magnet, the gravity of it wold be so...bad.

Well, disaster magnet I was today, first dropping my Compaq on the ground, then my PSP went KABOOMZ.

Compaq - screen cracked to bits, can't see anything for nutters. Needed to get a new computer, sigh.

PSP - apparently I leaned on my bg little too much, and...yeah, screen cracked -.-

Disaster magnet 100X efficiency. I am so proud of myself.

Not.

By the way, if you see Glendon, do HCDB8s a big favour and knee him in the balls. Or where that area is supposed to be (we cannot ascertain the presence of balls).

Thank you.

volume rocker;

2009-11-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

Forgiving and forgetting is kind of difficult sometimes.

The only thing I need now is a HTC HD2.

Damn my fickle mind, but what the shit, screw all the phones I was talking about previously, the HTC HD2 has my heart now.

And God do I want it back.

Bad.

blonde hair flows;

2009-11-18T14:14:00.002+08:00

I just realised that waves existent in blonde hair looks pretty awesome, heh. THIMUN is screwing with my mind, dammit.

Hrm, it's going to be a short post (ICJ is in session now -.-), but still, what the heck.

Next year's MAS Secretariat has eluded me, not that I'm feeling really upset about it. I guess I sort of perfected a type of numbness that helps to remove any sense of sadness, I don't know. Crying is like something foreign to my body, and even if I wanted to, I can't.

Until I explode, of course.

At least I still have a chance in 37th HSC...then again, maybe not. Suddenly I don't feel like entering HSC again -.-

It's a cycle I guess, wanting to join yet not wanting to join.

But of course, I know deep down inside, I want HSC really really bad.

More than anything.

...Yeah.

ahahahaha;

2009-11-16T19:31:00.004+08:00

Somehow I find myself being a phone geek these days, fanatically reading phone reviews to decide my next phone. -.-''

But since I'm already at it, might as well provide a little insight to the phones that have been popping up in the industry, and maybe you'll find a bit of inspiration for your next phone from this post xD

Alright, first up, would be one of the most popular phone producing company - Nokia. Nokia has recently revealed two new phones that go under the alias X - the Nokia X3 and X6. While both of them look similar, one is a touch phone (X6), while the other isn't. Both are coming to Singapore soon, and will most likely be released into the European market somewhere in Q4 of 2009. No reviews have been up for these two phones yet, but it is worth taking a look at the pictures (:

Nokia X3:

X6:

Then we come to Sony Ericsson. In this case, we delve into the XPERIA series. You have seen the ugly X1, and the upcoming X2 doesn't seem to be any better. But the SE XPERIA X10 promises to be quite a treat, I'll just show you the photo without using much technicalities xD

XPERIA X10:

The last mega-producer will be Samsung, and then a little of the not-so-famous brands xD Alright, Samsung has two phones of interest (to me at least), and both are touch phones, one has a full-QWERTY keyboard to boot. They both work for people who are on a budget, but want a little class (hence the touch), yet it is meant for teenagers, who want to customise their phones (beats me. They said it.) Introducing, the CORBY (up in Singapore markets at $299 without contract), and the upcoming CORBYPro...

CORBY:

CORBYPro:

So, as promised, one not-so-famous producer. Actually it's relatively famous, just not that focused on phones - LG. THe LG BL40 New Chocolate is the bridge between the old Chocolate series and the new one (hence New -.-). It's quite cool, as the aspect ratio is 21:9, a screen ratio that is commonly seen in movie theaters, rarely in TVs, and, obviously, the first of its kind in phones. It's a full touch capacity phone, so it's pretty cool too. (On a random side note, SNSD endorsed this phone apparently.)

BL40 New Chocolate:

Haha, fantasies xD If I can get all these phones, I think I'll die of ecstasy xD

Back to reality, I think the most affordable ones are the CORBY series, but if you want a bit of flavour, I'd go for Nokia X6 (I intend to do so, anyway).

And this ends this random techie-wannabe post xD

midnight cycling into the dark;

2009-11-14T22:12:00.002+08:00

Feeble attempts at reviving an already dead blog. But nevertheless, I'll just try, heh.

Okay...Council Retreat, Debates Chalet...

Council Retreat
It's kind of weird, since it never crossed my mind three years ago, when I sat in the function room in Malacca, watching the 7th ProEd Council step down, that I'd ever do it as well. But, three years down the road, and here I am, at the same crossroad as Izumi had just a year ago. It's not really a feeling of loss, more of just a weird feeling, a passing out phase. It's like, all of a sudden, something that almost seems natural just left. A weird feeling, kind of unpleasant, but face it, I'm a Sec 3, nothing I can do.

I guess one of the highlights that will remain with me about this Retreat the most is the jumpshots. Forever trapped in action. Kind of a nice feeling, though to think about it is kind of weird...ah well.

10th ProEd Council will be the largest thus far, and under quite a capable leadership I guess. No matter, somehow the feeling that I should care is not there...jealousy? Not being given another chance to rewrite all the wrongs, to rectify all the blemishes...whatever, really.

Debates Chalet
...
...
...
I think I'll describe it in one word - wasted. It was kind of wasted, and I think part of it was my fault. Actually, most of it. To add in 'electronic appliances such as a laptop' into the packing list is completely stupid, since it'll just divert attention. But I did it anyway, and looking back, I really should have just insisted on gaming consoles. At least we can watch Edward use the SPINNING GIRL again xD

But I guess, apart from the wasted stuff, we should never play Truth or Dare with OB markers EVER again. It's stupid, boring, and really just a waste of time. I mean, isn't the whole point of truth and dare to ask questions with sexual content? What else do you really want to ask? What's your favourite drink? Save me the theatrics, seriously -.-

But the BEST BEST BEST BEST thing of all would be the MIDNIGHT CYCLING :D
It'd be a pain to talk about the entire thing, so let's summarise it:
6.6KM CRUSING IS TEH BEST!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Let's do it again at Fac's Chalet, please (:

foundation running;

2009-10-27T23:37:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I actually found the motivation to blog. Like, seriously. These days, blogging is like just another airy fairy thing.

Right, so like, what's there to talk about :O
1. EOYs
2. BSC
3. HiC
4. Debates Chalet & Jackets
5. ProEd Council

Woah, quite a fair bit heh, let's just go one by one, according to my mood (no reference to Ris Low, she just happened to be on the same wavelength as I am on now).

HiC
OMG YES IT'S FINALLY OVER. After DAYS of bitching, becoming annoyed, etc. etc. we've finally come to a splendid close for HiC 2009. Admittedly I was a HORRIBLE (even that is an understatement) OS, but the fact that the OT stuck together to see the event through to the finish, is very much commendable. I would hereby like to thank:
1. TIMO!!!!! (For taking ALLLLLLL the shit and doing it so bloody well)
2. Brion (For being so nice and just...well, being him)
3. Zhi Rong (For not complaining about anything at all and well...coming even though technically he wasn't informed until like, the day before)
4. Edward (Need I say more lol?)
5. Kevin (For taking over people who were SUPPOSED to be stagehands, amidst his own busy schedule)
6. Chen Rui (For taking charge of all the ushering duties so well)

Really, without these 6, HiC would be history. I also like to thank the Eden cast~
LeeEnTing|JeungHyoLim|RyanneLeong|WeiYiChen|TommySin|EddyLiang|DarionHotan|Chng LueyChi|DanielLye

Thank you all 9 of you for being the greatest cast I've ever worked with :D

Presenting to you, for the very last time, the Eden cast:

I'm tired...update tomorrow.

sin (90 - A) = cos A;

2009-10-09T13:01:00.003+08:00

I should really be studying Geog now, but heck, it's the end of the week.

Not to mention I'm in school. Sigh. :X

Anyway, just read Edward's old post about 2007 chalet. It kinda made me remember the good old times the 6 of us had...I wonder if it'll be any different, after 3 years of knowing each other? I guess I'll never know, since most probably throughout these 3 years we all changed, some adversely, others little. But it's still change, nonetheless. So like, with all these changes, it makes me wonder whether when we get together for chalet, we are still able to relive those memories, or if they'll turn up as simply good ol'things we can hold onto.

I don't really know which one I want, but I do know that this year, when we take over, surely the atmosphere will be different. In a good way, I hope.

Speaking of chalet, I really should talk to Darion to get it booked soon. If you're reading this Darion, PLEASE ASK DR. MERCER THANKS :D

Hope that the chalet can be booked by 15 October...wouldn't be nice if we found out there were no chalets left for us, and that we will have to pay crazy amounts of money just to get one.

Ah shucks, memories of those 3 days 2 nights just can't seem to stop coming back now that I've read the post. :X

Debate chalet...HiC too...Bridge Competition...I think I'll burn myself out after exams...and be happy about it all (:

Or maybe not. I think I'll just die out in the end, heh.

before the meteors fall;

2009-10-04T11:12:00.005+08:00

Well...tomorrow, Doomsday arrives. But before that, some response to Hon's Mousehunt thingum:

Ang Jun Hean:
Mousehunt is just a lame game with no value whatsoever. I find it ridiculous that people bother to check back such a boring game every 15 minutes, let alone be addicted to such a mundane enterprise. I myself have mousehunt added as an application in my facebook account but I'm proud to say that I have full self-discipline and control and have never wasted my time on such fruitless games. Mousehunt is a game that requires NO MONEY WHATSOEVER to play, as compared to games that money gives one a distinct advantage over other players such maplestory or world of warcraft. Thus, with me included, many of us students with limited funds would find it appealing to play such a game. Yet, I still find mousehunt severely boring and not worth time or money. In conclusion, I would not play mousehunt unless the sky falls down or ronza comes, whichever occurs first.

Edward Low:
Dear Dr Hon; I've done a HRP which is very closely linked to social networking sites and I am horrified to say that the detriments of social networking sites themselves far exceed that of any computer game. Why else do youths like ourselves go onto social networking sites but to flirt? So that we can post up status messages that say "oh i'm tired" (thinking about it in serious consideration, what practical benefits are there in enlightening all our friends that we are tired except to attention-monger?) Why do people see a need to social network? We're students for God's sake! We ought to do more meaningful things like study...and study. On the bright side, I caught a Centaur mouse, and it dropped a gnarled potion. I am very pleased about this.

Shaun Khoo:
heh the nolife-ness of hwachongians have manifested in the form of mousehunt. even if you remove mousehunt it will still be channelled elsewhere, just like how the school banned the freedom of accessing all websites on laptops, students found mousehunt! just before mousehunt was the infamous plants vs zombies! by banning one after the other, you're just leading them on to find another source to vent their nolife-ness on. just solve the problem by giving hwachong students a life each, i'm sure they'll appreciate it :)

We are all Hwach no-lifers. Cheers.

EDIT:

This one is really ownage...as in, read the one in brackets. Hon's reply to a smart person :D

Mousehunt is a passive game which basically involves clicking a button every 15 minutes. So I don't know why the Sec 1s are so addicted to Mousehunt. I agree with those people who say that the majority shouldn't suffer for the minority's sake. We're supposed to be self-sufficient and at least partially independent. If they want to waste time Mousehunting, it's their problem, they should just be filtered out.

LIOW WEI YUAN (3H2)

[Remarks: HCI students should not be so selfish. Pls help another when the need arises.]

of duodenums and glycerol;

2009-10-01T13:02:00.001+08:00

Today, I let my friend borrow a pen. After class, instead of walking down the hall to return my pen, she threw it over everyone's heads. It hit the tops of the lockers, slid 30 feet, then flew off and right into my hand. I'm glad our ninja training is effective. MLIA

and his glory appears;

2009-09-28T22:21:00.003+08:00

Once again I am a captive audience of Japanese and recently this really weird French/Italian sounding songs. Which I found out are actually helping me concentrate in revision more :D

But recently Hillsong produced this really awesome song...His Glory Appears. It's just very emotional...and when it was performed in church on Sunday...it's really anointed music (:

The lyrics are short, but powerful :D

You gave me hope, You made me whole at the cross
You took my place, You showed me grace,
At the cross where You died for me.
and His glory appears, like the light from the sun
Age to age, He shines
O look to the skies, hear the angels cry
Singing Holy is the Lord.

Then there's Mai Hoshimura's Sakura Biyori. I don't really remember why I liked it in the start, but one thing's for sure now, it's an awesome song :D

Uh...I've got two versions...one's the piano cover, and the other's the original song. But both are equally awesome (:

Finally, the one in the Ferrero Rocher ad!I don't exactly bother remembering the name, but haha...

Okay back to work liao xD

*IDON'TWANTTOKNOWHOWMANY* DAYS TO EOYS!

flush~;

2009-09-25T10:32:00.002+08:00

Oh well, blogging during lesson time isn't exactly the smartest thing I've done, but honestly speaking, it's getting kind of dry. And noisy. I can't hear a thing anyway.

And Yi Chen is sleeping beside me. Oh crap, that sounds damn wrong. I mean...I'm sitting next to Yi Chen, who is sleeping! Ah ha!

Okay, so like, a few things to talk about...

Firstly, elections! Brandon and I don't know who to vote :O Both of us are torn, and are immensely proud of the three (: [if you three happen to read this for some reason, good job!]. Hope has once again been reignited for the 10th ProEd Council! Heh...

Oh damn. That was fast. And short. What to say...haha.

Then, Brandon's flow presentation! That was hilarious, lol. It sort of went like this...

-before the presentation-

Brandon: WW, can look through my presentation or not?

Me: -looks through- Uh...put it as "You will be fully prepared for your exams"...

Brandon: 'Kay. -changes the stuff-

-during presentation, Brandon's last slide-

Slide: You will be fully prepared for MY exams...

It's priceless, LOL. can't believe he actually changed I as you, but not my as your! xD

Oh well...go *try to* listen to chem liao. (:

cross my heart;

2009-09-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

I feel horrible.

Not physically.

Just, horrible.

I don't know...

Will everything...

be...fine?

leave my log cake alone;

2009-09-22T11:29:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness...it's been so long since I watched this. Wonder why I forgot about it at all xD

riichi ippatsu tsumo;

2009-09-21T19:42:00.001+08:00

Hiatus obviously don't work :p Not going to try any more, just gonna do my best :D

On another note, HRP is done at 5500 words. Not that it's a great thing or anything, but I COMPLETED MY FRIGGING HRP! :D

as he flies away;

2009-09-15T22:15:00.002+08:00

Woah. It's been some time since I touched my blog :p

Well, lots of things happened, and for the most of it, they aren't nice. Not at all :X

Firstly, MSG. It's one of the most irritating this that ever happened to this world. It can make you damn happy, or it can make you feel like you want to die. Looks like I've been getting the latter feeling for the past 3 terms, and I'm really scared that it'll happen again this term.

In all honesty, IP is a great programme. But I don't think I want to go there. Not discriminating or anything, but I guess I learn more in HP. The people in there are...well...weird, but overall they're so much fun to be around with. And I want to stay with people like that, who make my life more interesting.

Then we talk about revision. I guess this one is my fault, but only now do I realise the massive syllabus I have to cover in 3 weeks. It's not impossible, but that means my sleeping patterns will have to change. Which I don't know how to :X

Not to mention, some stuff are happening here and there in various places in life. Debates, for example. Well, here's not an appropriate place to elaborate, so I'll leave it as such.

Finally, ProEd Council. In a while, the 9th will step down. And it's really frustrating that this year is so...unproductive (at least for now). I mean, most of the initiatives we had in mind we cut short because of H1N1. Zzzz. It feels so horrible to leave office without doing anything at all! Urgh.

At least there's a few things worth celebrating...

HiC. Our group wasn't bad, definitely can do well if we rehearse properly and stuff :p AND YES RYANNE, WE SHOULD TOTALLY GO FOR SOME KARAOKE THINGY SOON :D

15 SLC Facs! Haven't seen most of them in a long time, but I hope that you know, these things will be a good memory that stays with us, so whether we meet again or not in the future, we'll remember that the other 39 of us made such a difference in our lives.

Oh well...I guess that's it from me for quite a while...meanwhile...

I'M ON A FRIGGING HIATUS :D

eyeliner and cigarettes;

2009-09-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

THEY'RE BACK :DDDDD

sometimes we just wanna leave;

2009-08-31T20:45:00.002+08:00

Today was great, to say at the very least. It's not everyday you can just let go of all the expectations that are heaved upon you and expect to carry it normally like no one else's business. Guess nowadays the times where we can just be ourselves normally don't come by that often already, huh.

The two YYs were awesome and everything, and around them everything just seems so...natural. Like, every single move I make doesn't seemed judged, just accepted without question. It's kind of nice to think that there are some people that actually don't think of you as a title, but just who you are.

Watched The Proposal. I suppose it was, in general, a pretty good movie. Though some facts here and there were wrong and stuff, the antics throughout the entire movie was just hilarious. From the naked scene to the witch is on her broom nonsense, it's really quite awesome. The atmosphere of the movie was generally nice, but Yi Yun's sporadic crying was...scary. Scary in a good way, like, over emotional way.

Overall today was one of the more exhilarating days this year. Apart from SLC, of course. That doesn't count (since it's THE more awesome thing this year thus far).

Parting words, EWM! :D

can we get through this avalanche;

2009-08-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

Decided to change skin for a little variation.

It's become kinda quite ever since the Sabah people left. Kind of lonely, if you ask me. :X

Looking forward to training soon...(:

'cos your words don't translate;

2009-08-21T13:56:00.001+08:00

MSG fcuking itself up :(

I am living this life. FML.

full flush;

2009-08-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

I'm already looking back
I'm already looking around
Where did we get off the track
What wass it that brought us down

I'm already waking up
How I've been asleep too long
Losing you is hard enough
Not knowing anything was wrong

Changes come but where they go?
You'll never know

Just another day like any other
Nothing in the sky said run for cover
Just another reason never thought it would end this way
There was no parade
No lights flashing
No songs to sing along the way
There was no parade

Four years were supposed to last
You were never supposed to be
Just somebody in the past
Somebody I used to see

Trouble crept up all nights
Warning never came a time
Before I knew it we were dust
Just left behind, left behind

Changes come but where they go?
You'll never know

Just another day like any other
Nothing in the sky said run for cover
Just another reason never thought it would end this way
There was no parade
No lights flashing
No songs to sing along the way
There was no parade
No waves crashing
There was no one else around for days
There was no parade

After all the losing never hurt than last goodbye
It was sudden as butterflies

There was no parade
No lights flashing
No songs to sing along the way
There was no parade
No waves crashing
There was no one else around for days
There was no parade

- No Parade, Jordin Sparks

this is my now;

2009-08-16T20:47:00.002+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA (TAN)! YOU'RE NOW 16, AND LEEEEEEEEEGAL! :D

Haha, yeah. (: Uhm...well...I guess tomorrow's going to be hell, but wtheck. Who cares? As long as I know my stuff, I won't die I guess. :D

SLim takes over History tomorrow again. Quite excited, frankly speaking. I prefer his style of teaching compared to TanSH's. Not that she's a bad teacher, it's just teaching style I guess. SLim works based on how much you read (meaning you don't read, you're hopelessly lost. Also may mean that he doesn't really know much xD), but TanSH's really lecture. Guess I absorb more in SLim's lessons, heh. But I prefer TanSH's marking xD. Lenient like crazy.

Aiyah. Sian...go back to study Geog le...bye bye (:

no parade;

2009-08-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

Today was great :D

Thank you Brenda, Damian, DK, Kenji, Nick Chuan and Ryo for today (: Not to mention Shu Shien who popped up for just that little bit, but nonetheless :D

Well, started off with a convo between DK, Ryo and me. They asked if I was free at 1.50pm...blah blah blah, ended up at J8, watched UP with Brenda and Damian, and then went Bishan Library to mug :D

Quite productive, managed to absorb quite a lot of Geog stuff, until the other 4 came along. Quickly degenerated into a crapping session, and it continued in Pastamania :p

Haha...wish I took photos, but didn't. Ah well, there's always next time.

Note to self: Study in the library next time. WITHOUT A LAPTOP :D

russian routlette is not the same without a gun;

2009-08-14T22:34:00.001+08:00

The way I'm typing this out now is very weird. OR it may just mean that my computer is on it's way to screw up. Even though it's less than a year old. Oh yay.

Anyway, thought I'd just talk a little bit about everything and anything around me, since I obviously have no blogging worthy material. Right...so let's just start with (oh my gosh) school.

School is becoming hell recently. Sure, Council work has been slacker now with the switching of Teachers' Day OT and CNY OT, and work has been lessened on me so that I can focus more on studies, but honestly, this just puts more pressure. Sigh, when will the teachers ever learn :(

Tests! Next week's going to be a crazy week...

Monday: Geography, Literature

Tuesday: Physics

Wednesday: Chinese

Thursday: China Studies in Chinese, Biology SPA (not really a test but it's like, 5% of Sec 4 grade so...)

HP screws up your social life, period.

Then there's Debate. It's kind of fun taking Welfare position, 'cos there are things to do, birthdays to be celebrated, jackets to be produced...well, it's a very cool position, if you think about it I guess.

And my mum's watching some Channel 8 documentary thingum, about fake social workers scamming old ladies into giving money and stuff.

Honestly, I think it's very low of those frauds to pass off as social workers to cheat the old ladies. I mean, these old ladies are OLD, they are trying to support themselves! Unless she lives in some mansion (they live in HDB flats, mind you), they need to work to get money. And no one would employ a 93 year old, let's get real. I hope those frauds will turn themselves in, 'cos it's really sad to see them being cheated like that, and still forgive the frauds. Doesn't it tug at their own conscience? Low, that's what those people are. Low.

To end off, I hate to do this, but here's something that you should listen to ONLY if you're bored and really want to listen to ~~bad~~ random patriotic music:

look inside your tiny mind;

2009-08-11T22:50:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since i properly ranted. But I guess whatever I want to rant is not meant for public view.

I guess that's why I have a diary. It's been untouched for a long time though. Let's get it started once again then. :X

But suffice to say, I can hardly feel the connection with you guys anymore. Specifically 4 of you.

evacuate the dancefloor;

2009-08-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

Cascada's new single is awesome! :D

Anyway, this is kind of dumb, but if you actually have the time, watch this please :D

you know, the best things in life don't come cheap;

2009-08-08T09:08:00.000+08:00

Blog hopping seems to be one of the most common things I do now, seeing that I don't exactly have a very illustrious Internet life.

Just read someone's blog again, and it was kinda depressing, sort of like trying to find meaning in his life.

That then brought me to think about psychologists, who help psychoanalyse you and tell you what you ought to do to calm down your nerves, feel better etc. But do they really do that, or are they just saying what you want and need to hear, which in turn makes you feel better?

I don't know actually, but it would be quite cool to actually sit through one of these sessions the next time, and then I think I will be able to tell :p

But to that particular person, if you ever happen to read this post, just know this:
Life isn't all about the bad things. Just because there's always an abundance of horrid stuff happening in your life doesn't mean that your life is therefore officially ~~fucked~~ screwed up. It's just like Bridge you know, sometimes you get a really bad partner, or a really bad hand for a period of time. But who ever said that that should make you any weaker? Just believe that you are the one in charge of your life, and transform those hands and that stupid partner of yours into a force to be reckoned with (:

Ah I love my new Samsung screen :D (21.5"! :D)

failblog.org;

2009-08-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

Had a little fun at the Debate GM today, giving ExCO positions really weird acronyms :D

Club Captain (CC i.e. Sissy) - Darion Hotan
Deputy In-Charge Know-it-all (DICK) - Glendon Goh (particularly fitting isn't it?)
General Administration - Secretary (GAS) - Edward Low
Principal Consultant - Projects (PC(P)) - Shaun Khoo (it's just dissing Hwach, so it's not all that funny)
Public Relations - Activities and TrAining (PRATA) - Wei Yi Chen
Welfare Officer (WOW) - Look Woon Wei (WOW = Welfare Officer Woonwei :D Benefits of creating acronyms is that you get the least screw up one)

It would have been awesome if these positions got printed in the Yearbook, but it can't. What a sad life. :(

HiC needs working, but I have no idea what to do. LOL, this year will be interesting.

Well...let's just hope this term's grades will be decent enough for me to stay in HP. As much as I hate it, I honestly can't imagine myself anywhere else. >.< (Plus, I love the Humanities...except Geog)

Ah well...let's just hope tomorrow will be better.

嶺上開花

2009-08-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

Rinshan kaiho. It's one of the only moves in Japanese mahjong that I actually know the name of. Essentially it means tsumo after a kan. Which is awesome. Go watch Saki. :D

Got my dream position for Debate ExCO '09/'10. Welfare. Awesome :D:D Now I can run amok for birthday celebrations and no one can blame me :D

I am now God. Haha. Just kidding.

I don't know what to blog nowadays. Sigh.

Tattoo by Jordin Sparks is awesome though.

So is Sex and the City.

And One Fifth Avenue.

remember those walls i built;

2009-07-31T10:40:00.001+08:00

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

-Beyonce, Halo

it's a mad world;

2009-07-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

Debate elections tomorrow. Somehow I don't really get good vibes from it. But there's no point worrying I guess. Most likely some paranoia on my part again :p

Once again, I'm at a crossroads. Though this time, I'm pretty confident that I can do a good job actually, not as uncertain as when I took over ProEd Council. Speaking of which, I do hope what I see now is progress, not just some facade. :X

It's been a rough year I guess, so the Council's success has to be viewed differently from past ones. But there's a time for introspection, and now's not it (chemical calculation awaits me sigh).

Ah well...at least there's pizza tomorrow. THANK YOU DR MERCER :D

talking nonsense into the night;

2009-07-21T11:49:00.004+08:00

Sometimes silence is really a charm.

we lie in trepidation;

2009-07-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

Using some really weird and small laptop given to my mum by my aunt. It's like, less than 7 inches and it's even harder to type than my phone -.- Though it's less than 1kg, it's horribly difficult to type on it without making any mistakes.

Sigh. I'll update later, when it is easier to type.

promise you'll not fly away;

2009-07-17T17:19:00.002+08:00

Some things are just not meant to be said in front of certain people.

I don't really know what's going on in my life anymore, really. :X From what I'm used to (and thoroughly enjoy, for that matter) - doing work - I've now been told I shouldn't be doing them. Rather, I should be focusing more on the thinking aspect, thinking about direction, goals and the future.

I would really love to do that, but it's just not my first nature. My first nature is to do things, 'cos to me, hands on is really what helps me understand people best, helps me know what I should be doing, and help me see what they are made of and who they truly are. It doesn't help if you tell me that the "thinking" side should be what I'm doing now, it doesn't and isn't sitting well with me. I'll be there next Wednesday, no matter what. If you don't like it, screw you.

It's been more than half a year, and finally I think I can say that we're going somewhere. It took a while, more so than the past few years in this, but there's progress, I hope. Ah I don't know, shan't divulge too much here if you haven't already figured out what I'm talking about.

Ah this sucks. Tomorrow will be a better day...I hope. >.<

tremble for the harp;

2009-07-14T13:05:00.002+08:00

First day of "quarantine". I think it was really stupid of me, but I have to play the role to its fullest I guess. No matter whether it's for real that I ought to be quarantined or not, if I said that I would stay at home to be isolated, I better stay at home and be isolated. The irony of it all, sigh.

Wasn't at all in the mood to do work, so I went blogsurfing. Some blogs that I read were really kind of...depressing, and somehow I guess I felt it too. It's weird that I felt it in the first place, since I don't really have close ties with most of the people whose blogs I surfed. But the despair was kind of obvious, and well, let's just say that it's really depressing to read them as well. :X

Random ramblings heh. Decided to revive watching ANTM Cycle 9, since more or less the animes are coming up at a regular basis, which means once I watch them for around 25 minutes, I have to wait another week before the next episode is up. Sigh.

Also decided to start watching this anime I accidentally clicked on, seriously. It's called School Days. Some sappy love triangle anime. I haven't watched it yet, but when I do, I guess I'll tell you if it's worth watching or not, heh.

Sian lah. I think I'll just go back to school tomorrow. Staying at home is so NOT a good idea. Webportal publishing 2.0?! I wish.

eLearning has once again been brought to another level of fei-ness.

tsumo after a kong, 1600/3200;

2009-07-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

I'm just addicted over that phrase heh. Saki FTW.

Anywayz, today was, well...weird. It just seems like everyone's getting shot down, one by one (Harper's Island lol). Let's analyse this situation:

When school started today, 3H2 had 17 people (7 didn't come).
Nothing happened for a while....
During History lecture, Bngzl was suddenly called out, and 3H2 was down to 16 people.
Chinese lesson was epic.
10 minutes into the lesson...
Zhi Xian (in Chinese. I lazy to type): "Mdm Cao! My temperature is 38.3 degrees!"
Suffice to say, CaoJW had to bring Zhi Xian to the quarantine area (where he later clocked a temperature of 39 degrees). 15 people left.
--While CaoJW was gone--
Yuan Jun: OH MY! MY TEMPERATURE IS 37.7 DEGREES!
So he waited...
And waited...
And waited...
And waited. CaoJW never came back.
At 1+ pm, YJ decided it was time to leave. So being the "nice" classmate I was (I was trying to get quarantined yes), I escorted him.
Halfway there...CaoJW appeared. And so she had to escort him to quarantine area.
Final count: 14 people.
When CaoJW came back, SungKK also came back to tell us to go home.
And the most epic thing is this: he wore his mask only AFTER talking to us, even though our class was the infected one.

So basically, that was how 3H2 got pwned by H1N1.

Oh, did I mention how Kenji went into HP5, which was the room H2 used for Chinese, and got a 39.7 degrees fever in the end?

Epic.

why this love always feel like a battlefield;

2009-07-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

Today's ExCO Meeting was somewhat liberating. It actually felt good to talk to all the ExCO once again, after almost one whole term. I doubt I've laughed so much since two weeks ago, and it was...well...just nice to see them again (which is quite absurd actually since I'll see them in school anyway).

Anyway, today was just...draining. I don't know, it just feels as if something was brutally removed from me and tossed aside in favour of fatigue and, well...emptiness. Which essentially means as I type this out, I don't really feel anything. I'm just tired and emotionless at this point in time. Some tingling feeling inside me though, cries out in sadness. Which is kind of weird seeing that there's nothing to be sad about.

Or maybe there is.

Honestly speaking, I don't know what to think anymore. My faith in all of you was challenged today, and some of them told me they honestly don't think that our bond is real. I would have rebutted instantly in defence of all of you (and maybe for myself as well), but the scary thing is that it all makes sense. Saying that we miss each other like hell almost every single post, and wanting to meet up almost immediately after disbanding from any outing, it really seems...artificial, this bond we share.

I hate to think that it's real. Someone help me think.

What would you do, if you were here?

Someone...help >.<

i'll try not to fall asleep while typing this;

2009-07-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

MAS is finally over, and boy what a journey it was this time. Greg was unfortunately plagued by sickness throughout these two days, so all that meant was YJ and I had to run the show.

Which was hell.

We mean it.

kill the groove;

2009-07-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

The age old joke:

In life, it's quite similar to Bridge. You either have a good partner, or you'd better have a damn good hand.

the o is a silent o;

2009-06-30T21:35:00.002+08:00

Two days into eLearning and I have yet to learn anything, or do anything productive. FML -.-

Fever fever go away. ~~Come again another day.~~ Don't you fucking dare come back.

spin that disc on the disco floor;

2009-06-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

I realised today that maybe being an editor-in-chief for some fashion magazine may just be as fun as teaching :D (dang I hate it when I prove others right :X)

Jordin Sparks' latest song Battlefield is like...wow. Somehow it resonates with a lot of the facs' nightmare nowadays. Which is kind of spooky actually. All that talk about being positive and think about other things apart from what we may become in the future, it just seems to disintegrate in front of all that they say, what they dream and stuff.

Wish I could take their place, really. It sucks to have a nightmare, much less about something so...precious. Indescribable feelings. Palpitating hearts...fear that consumes...it sucks. Big time.

I'm now going to attempt to revive that author in me, and write out an extract of the latest chapter of what I'm going to write for that Ouran fic I have yet to attend to :X

Darkness. That's all I can see. I hear nothing, except the palpitations of my heart. The silence apart from that is deafening, and I can hardly see the fingers that I stretch out in front of me. I stand up, or at least I think I do. My entire body is numb, I can't feel a single thing. I try calling out, but nothing comes out from my mouth. Panic engulfs my body, and suddenly suffocation sets in...

I've lost it, I swear. It's supposed to be some scene of a nightmare. Gosh, my English's degrading like crap. Shittt...

per[FAC]tion only ends when we say it ends...

a new horizon;

2009-06-26T21:04:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, life doesn't seem all that screwed after all.

E-LEARNING IS THE <3.

Doesn't change the fact I miss you guys like hell. :(

packaged coin toss;

2009-06-25T19:26:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden, I just realised holidays are ending. :X

I hope that doesn't mean end of all that weird mass fac convos that we have.

After all, it is the only thing that we have left to hold onto before we meet again...some time soon...

(It sucks to not be able to tell you how much I miss you.)

of books and fountain pens;

2009-06-24T23:20:00.007+08:00

It's so funny how feelings for a Youth Council and for the facs spring forth so easily and effortlessly even though SLC ended almost one month ago. Looking back, it really is kind of hard to believe that SLC already ended. From all that had happened this holiday (wait. HOLIDAY?!), I would say that SLC never really ended. And it never will, looking at what's currently happening.

Youth Council E Outing:

Oh hey! :D You know, only 11 of us managed to make it for the outing, and in the end we were chased from the beach 'cos apparently we "can't have BBQ there". Which is pretty nonsensical, honestly. But it's fine really, we still had fun, and thanks to Orionis for organising such a~~(n) [epic phail]~~ great outing! I can't wait for the time we have the next outing, and all the best to Circini, who is organising the next outing! :D

Special thanks goes out to Afiq, Nicholas, Glenn, Wendelyn, Bibiana, Tim Long, Caroyln, Ariessa and Chuan Yu for making this outing extra special and meaningful! You guys are all missed :X

per[FAC]tion Outing!:

You people rock! There's nothing else I can say, heh. I guess at this point, words, compared to what I feel, mean nothing at all (does this mean I will fail Oral?!). I suppose it's this warm fuzzy feeling I have whenever I think about what we share, and what we are. I'm quite scared of what we will be, 'cos I don't know how much more bonded we will be (: It's almost scary to think about it, though it does give some reassuring feeling :D

Ryo and Nick Chuan's birthday celebration! I am proud that I actually baked a cake (for the first time), and it was cheesecake! OREO CHEESECAKE! :D Haha...even though it did turn out to look like some curry puff (:X), it still tasted great! Thanks to my aunt and Kah How's recipe, of course :D

I really hope this will never end...not now, not ever.

A really really big THANK YOU to Shirley, Alicia, Ming Kang, Dileen, DK, Ryo, Nick Chuan, Nick Kee, Chuan Yu, Kenji, Tim Yap, Crystal, Brenda, Shu Shien, Daniel, Zhi Xian, Yongda, Damian and Wesley for making this such a great outing! :D

"If memories are worth keeping, then you, my friend, are worth a treasure."
-Unknown

What the hell. I miss you guys already :(

raptured decisions;

2009-06-12T10:53:00.002+08:00

It sort of occurred to me yesterday how much 15slc; per[fac]tion! means to me. From AAR to the movie (KENJI AND ROTTEN TOMATOES DIE) to the lunch and dinner, they really meant a lot, more than i had initially imagined.

The AAR was kind of crappy, actually. In a good sense. Well, since we all had fun, and the feeling of one [FAC]ulty came back, with the past few days being cooped up with only memories of 15th SLC to keep emotions in check. Did Bubblegum again. And the entire entourage of cheers. Not as exciting as before, but still, the spirit was there. (:

Then we went for lunch. Yoshinoya :D. 2 family sets, then Chuan and Wen Yi became our papa and mama. :D

Movie. Looking back, it was hilarious. Honestly, the movie was just filled with cheap thrills and well...no plot. But the horror behind it was crazy. When stretches of draggy, boring scenes are not in place, they are simply replaced with horror/freak-you-out-of-your-mind-with-cheap-thrills sort of things. But $8.50 was spent hiding behind a chair instead of watching it so...>.<

DINNER! :D Pastamania's pasta is divine can. Met abang, Katherine, Alicia, and all the other NP people (sorry guys, can't remember all your names :( ) and crapped around at the comic stores before (FINALLY) going home!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT FACS OUTING. RAWR.

mee siam mai hum;

2009-06-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

I thought this would happen sooner or later.

Adapted from Wen Yi's tagboard:

kwangming: heyL, go for it. and ya, believe ;D

This is...suspicious. Wen Yi, care to defend yourself? :D

my ostentatious dream;

2009-06-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

Beautiful.

rubrik's cubing my future;

2009-06-08T18:39:00.002+08:00

Well...it's been approximately 3 days since 15th SLC ended, but I just can't seem to be ready to move on. It's kind of childish to hold on to memories and not want to let them go away, and hope in vain that the very same moment will just replay itself over and over, but then, who says hope will not get us anywhere?

The audacity of hope. I guess that's the defining factor then. Audacity. Dictionary definition would be, in short, shameless boldness. I guess that's just what hope is all about. Holding onto something firmly and not letting go with that lack of shame and apparently baseless boldness that most would perceive as stubbornness. That is hope, and I guess at the end of the day, hope will only sprout forth pain, regret, and yet bittersweet memories of 2nd - 5th June. Hope never meant to kill, it just does...

Whenever I do go for leadership conferences, or other such stuff, I always like to look back and ask myself, "What could I have done better?", "Did I manage to take something away?" or even "How should I have acted to make this better?". It became second nature sooner or later I guess, and introspection soon became part of me.

Yet, looking back at 15th SLC per[fac]tion, I can't help but think that if I were to go back and change what I've done, things might have turned out much differently. Instead of this world of longing and reminiscence, maybe it would have turned out differently. I may not have much to regret or miss, simply because there was nothing to miss, or regret. But I guess this world I'm currently in, the phantasmagoric world where all I can do is replay 15th SLC with my mind's eye (and Facebook and YouTube), would be a much better option.

We've come a long way, that's for sure. No doubt 4 weeks is not enough to be deemed "long" by some, but it's long enough to bring 40 strangers (or less, seeing that some of us pretty much know each other here and there) together into one [FAC]ulty, and bring such oomph and dynamism to the table. This is 15th SLC per[fac]tion, and it will never change...not now, not ever.

When the OT had bowed to us to thank us, it felt as if something just vanished into thin air, ceasing to exist anymore...
When we all did Nobody together as one [FAC]ulty, the emotional attachment and burden that we all knew we would eventually start to carry just started crashing down...
When we watched (only for a short moment), Lyncis' montage, the cruel reality struck - that after that day, 15th SLC would be no more...
When the pizza came, and we attacked it, it hurt to think that this would be one of the last times we all stayed back together just to do this...
When we did Billy Banja, there just was no intention to let go of the others; there was no intention at all to leave...
When we started to disperse, it just seemed like the end...the end of a legacy, the end of such a great [FAC]ulty...

On the bus home, tears blurred my vision, and I simply sat there, waiting for them to fall.
They never did...
Could this mean...
That the legacy will never end...?

This sucks.

POST SLC DEPRESSION SUCKS.

chocolate and cream decadence;

2009-06-06T22:21:00.003+08:00

4 months for the OT, 4 weeks for the facilitators, 4 days for the participants. 2nd - 5th June was magical, and for these four days to end almost seems like a part of my life ending. Yeah, I'm not ready to let go of these four days. For the past 15 years, 4 months and 17 days, I have never experienced something quite like this.

Honestly, I feel as if I've been cheated by 14th SLC. Agreed it was great, high and all, but I've never felt this kind of connection so strongly to the event. 15th SLC did not have the rumoured to be "the-deciding-factor" that is the foreign participants to "make SLC high", but guess what? The Grand Finale, the culmination of everything that had happened throughout the past four days, the celebration of the SLC spirit, and the continuation of this event's resounding success, was the most high, the most exciting and definitely the BEST Grand Finale I've ever seen. sorry 14th OT, you just didn't make that great an impact.

[FAC]ulty is, I guess, the thing that changed my life, and my whole 15th SLC experience. Throughout the 4 weeks we were together, we transformed from strangers into - I dare venture to say - one family. What would have happened if SLC was 4 weeks ago would definitely not have had been the same. Facilitators would have been still stuck in their own cliques and schools, and nothing would have been accomplished.

But here we are now, at this juncture of the road. None of us are willing to let go I hope, and really, we don't have to. 15th SLC was a resounding success, and testimony to the per[FAC]tion that we as Facs have managed to upkeep. Well done guys! :D

And of course, my beloved Youth Council E, who can forget you? The many colourful and outstanding personalities, as well as a healthy mix of craziness and seriousness, you guys definitely outshone the other Youth Councils, even if it isn't apparent. And I do mean what I said: YOU GUYS KICKED THEIR ASS!

To Shu Shien - Heyy!!! I was initially very apprehensive when approaching you, since you're the only non-HCI facilitator in YC E (I just realised that :O). But we've pulled through, Circini loves you deeply, and I'll never forget you, not only as a facilitator, but also as a friend that I've met and will treasure. Thanks for everything, and all the best in your future endeavours and your O Levels! :D

To Yan Liang - Hello!!! :D Well...what can I say, really? It's kind of hard to say anything, since we're still going to meet eventually in HC. Nevertheless, I would really like to applaud you for what you've managed to accomplish with Velorum. Velorum, as I can see, has really grown together, and will most likely stay as close friends. And you know what? It wouldn't have been possible without you. Great job! (:

To Chuan Yu - My GOD! I really would like to thank you for everything you've done in and out of SLC. While you are still my HSC Quartermaster, you didn't use it to climb over me during SLC, and I am tremendously grateful for that (even though I most probably wouldn't have minded all that much). You are really an inspiration to Orionis, and I think that for that, you deserve a big round of applause for the work you've done. Cheers! (:

To YC - CONCEPT MEMBER!!!! Before I move on, Alfred demands to you come for training soon, and I mean really soon. Anyway, chairing the meetings weren't easy I'm sure, but you pulled it off aplomb! To YC E, you are THE greatest Concept and OT Member, so kudos to you and good luck for everything else that is going to come up in your life. :D

Special mention shall now go to Pegasi, the faculty I reliefed once, but still made an impact on me:
You guys were a great bunch, and even though it was only for a day, I would still like to thank you guys for everything and making my day as a facilitator a memorable one (:

SLC has ended in HCI, but it shall never end in our hearts.

That is the true spirit of SLC.

maybe you see, maybe you don't;

2009-05-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm quite tired of all the things happening around me, really. I mean, sure I appreciate and enjoy doing what I do, but sometimes it just seems a little too overwhelming, and to find a sanctuary is kind of hard nowadays, especially when your mum is telling you every 5 minutes to stop watching ____ when you so obviously are not.

I doubt what I'm facing is anywhere near what the SLC OT is facing, but I guess in it's own respective right, it's almost on the same level. Expectations, unfulfilled promises, all these things come crashing down all of a sudden. Perhaps it's because it's already the first half of the year, and still so many questions are left unanswered, and so much hopes are still held.

Guess I shouldn't complain though, since there are many people I can turn to...or so I think. Things are so blur nowadays I guess, I don't really know who to trust, or exactly what to do. Blind trust placed in favour of "curing" things, or maybe hardline stances so respect can be commanded. No offence, and not being sarcastic, but really, I don't think they will work. Maybe not now, maybe not in the short term, but hopefully they will...soon.

All these seem very bleak, and yeah, I know. I won't deny it...they are. But I guess all of us are entitled to times like this...isn't it?

On a happier note (hopefully), picked up the letter Izumi had written to me when he stepped down. It was inspirational, at the very least, and it gave me hope that things would, and can, be better.

Hope...would it be really that gullible to take it and say that it's ours? I hope not.

two words;

2009-05-21T23:27:00.003+08:00

Two words: fuck you.

Damn you. Can't you do anything right, like seriously? Fine, so you want your own space. Fine, so you think that you should be selfish sometimes. Fine, maybe you are right. But you know what, I don't care what you think about this, really. If you don't want to tell us the truth, fine. If you want to keep some stuff from us, fine. But if you think that playing some retarded mind games, or stupid things will actually make things any better, dream on. You can go lead that life you want now. Go ahead.

And YOU. You're no better. Taking sides, is it really worth it? I mean, we are supposed to exemplify things that are GOOD, not things that happen to be destructive to an organisation. Fuck you very much.

Yin Yang circle is actually a horny symbol. Trust me on that.

jumping into the canyon;

2009-05-20T23:24:00.003+08:00

It's kind of sad when everything around you starts spiraling out of proportion. Not just sad I guess, but kind of depressing. I mean, when they all seem to somehow converge at one frigging point, and this point happen to be something that I do NOT want to go to, since it always foreshadows the end, why wouldn't it be depressing?

Although, admittedly, these kind of things happen. Yeah, they do. Unfortunately for all of us. This sucks. The point which separates no return and saving grace is really scary. Threading in such waters...not somewhere anyone would like to be now, isn't it?

On a side note, and to more happy things, HiC Meeting today was...fun! (:
Ms Ting + Mr Toh combo = pwnz your azzz. (:

Sigh...when all these fade, will anything still remain? I wonder. Really.

the lark flies into the air;

2009-05-18T21:24:00.002+08:00

A new start.

Frankenstein Facade...

How apt.

Lady GaGa's voice is amazing!